Broken: Poem by Kelly

BROKEN

I AM BROKEN, WILL I EVER HEAL?
I TRY TO COVER THE SCARS OF HOW I REALLY FEEL.
YOU BACK ME INTO A CORNER, THERE IS NO WHERE FOR ME TO FLEE,
YOU JUDGE WITHOUT KNOWING THE REAL ME.
YOU BEAT ME DOWN UNTIL I CAN NO LONGER RISE,
I DON’T KNOW WHO YOU ARE, FOR YOU WEAR A DISGUISE.
WHY ME? WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE?
HOW COULD CAUSING MY TEARS BE SO MUCH FUN?
YOUR LAUGHTER CUTS DEEPLY INTO MY HEART,
EVERY TIME I SEEK STRENGTH, YOUR THERE TO RIP IT APART.
I AM TANGLED IN YOUR CHAINS OF FEAR,
THE REASONS I CAN NOT BREAK FREE ARE NOT CLEAR.
YOU CAPTURE ME WITH HATES EMBRACE,
I AM NOT THE ONE WHO STARTS THE CHASE.
I TREMBLE EVERY TIME I HEAR YOU VOICE,
I FEEL SO ALONE BUT I DON’T HAVE A CHOICE.
I LAY IN A BED OF DARKNESS LOST AND TORN,
DROWNING IN SADNESS JUST AS A RIVER OVERFLOWS AFTER A STORM.
YOU ARE NEVER VERY FAR FROM MY MIND,
ALL YOU HAVE DONE HAS MADE ME BLIND.
I NO LONGER FEEL, I AM AT MY WORST,
WHY IS IT THAT EVIL IS ALL THAT YOU THIRST?
I AM NOT PRETTY, I AM NOT THIN,
I AM FIGHTING A WAR, I WILL NEVER WIN.
I AM WEIRD, I AM POOR,
WHY AM I NOT WORTH FIGHTING FOR?
I AM WEAK, I AM OVERWEIGHT,
WHY IS IT FAIR THAT YOU CHOOSE MY FATE?
I NEVER GET A CHANCE, I FEEL SUCH SHAME,
I AM LIKE A FIRE, YOU ARE THE FLAME.
WHEN I’M ALONE MY SHADOW IS NOT ALL I SEE,
YOUR IMAGE IS STANDING THERE HAUNTING ME.
THERE IS SOMETHING YOU NEED TO SEE,
NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, THERE WILL NEVER BE A BULLY INSIDE OF ME.

(c) 2014 KELLY ANN ZUNDEL

Kelly says:

“I wrote broken because it shows how the victim feels. It represents the inner feelings that many do not talk about. It tells the life story that young people wish they could rewrite but they feel their voice is not heard. if they could take a stand and shine light on the darkness, their journey would change.”

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